sometimes I wonder is it us being stubborn?
somehow my aunt talked some sense into me.
he definitely need someone to accompany n take care of him in the future.
I also wouldn't want him to be alone for the rest of his life.
it's just a part of me feel it's way too fast and I couldn't accept another person into my family yet.
somehow accepting her makes me feel like I am 'betraying' my mum.
he has been trying so hard to make us meet and know each others better.
and yes, I had no choice but to turn up.
actually I really feel uneasy about it, but I just dono how to put it across
to him.
i was told I could write him a letter, but I couldn't do it cos I don't want to
hurt his feelings.
the other day, my aunt actually told him to stop forcing us to meet her.
I was shocked. I don't know how she talk about it.
since my aunt is pretty str-fwd person, I doubt nice words from her.
I feel very miserable cos the last thing I want is to hurt his feelings.
by putting myself in his shoes, I know he just want us to understand and as his children to give him our consent.
I feel very 对不起他。:'(
i am back from my phuket trip.
and unfortunately, i met with an accident there.
the other day i was thinking should i play the atv?
it is a 4-wheeled car that used to drive on uneven grounds.
so i was thinking maybe i should just give it a try
though there's a chance i will get all dirty.
so on valentine's day... we went to play in the morning.
we put on our helmets and immediately got on the car.
we arrived at this area which is full of sands and rocks...
the ground is so uneven with rocks and holes,
everytime i drove past them i feel like i am falling off.
only half an hour into our 2-hours session,
my car was quite near to the cliff and suddenly it hit a rock.
it changes my direction and the next moment i rmb..
i can't brake the car in time then me and the car fell off the cliff.
the cliff is like those on the way up to genting tt kind.
at the moment when i fell off, i still rmb i closed my eyes
thinking 'siao liao. i am so going to die...'
i even hit my head on something (but i have helmet on).
luckily, some tree and some roots/twines got me and the car stuck.
if not i really cannot imagine i am going to die becos of atv.
i actually fell off around 2 metres.. the cliff was so steep..
i stood up immediately and i tot nobody saw me fell..
until i heard rave's friend called out for me (i feel so relieved!)
the thai guy came down to pull me up, i even had one slipper missing.
only till then, rave came to me and check if i am fine.
cos when i fell off the cliff, he was behind me and got so shocked
until he also lost his direction and headed for the cliff.
lucky he braked in time and only fell abit off the cliff.
i was so in shock that i didn't cry and my hands were trembling.
i had cuts all over and my feet were bleeding..
i was so calm i even took out plaster myself to use.
the rest was so shock of what happened,
one angmoh even took out his camera and filmed the car down the cliff.
the rest of the journey, i was seated behind the thai guy (he drove)
and at the other area which is more safe, i got to ride myself again.
i am really really thankful that i managed to survive
though now i am full of bruises, cuts and scratches
and a bump on my head.
my family and friends were so concern about me
which make me feel so touched..
my dad was 'scolding' me for playing such dangerous sports.
seriously i really didn't know it's dangerous!
in the first place i thought it will be at some jungle only,
didn't know is hill top~ and the sides they didn't even put any barrier!
i will never ever play atv again. and it causes me to have phobia for cliff.
i think becos i am too weak to control the car,
everyone there is bigger size than me (even the angmoh girls).
rave was so apologetic of what happened when it is not his fault.
is like who knows this will happen? it is supposed to be sth fun~
and this incident makes me cherish my life more now..
no more outdoor sports for me!!
my sway luck!
this fri/sat, rave going to accompany me to polyclinic
to consult a doctor and go for some x-ray or something.
in case, i knock my head and cause internal injuries....
thank god for saving my life!